Dear Diary – SeaDate 260808
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#12p – Up All Night
Client work pinned until Monday. Which means, I have today and tomorrow to make it sing so I don'g get pinched again come 1130am.
I was so wound up, it took till after 5 to get sleepy.
Great morning SLEEPING!
Three hours of texting and phoning. OY VEY!
Someone died Wife excited on last day of school someone having a mental breakdown Someone wondering how I am someone wanting me to go somewhere someone worried about how to help someone else
eesh, this aftenoon feels like emotional cape canaveral. I need a bunch of screens up showing the weather and the want of all these minds.
Shin-ology
Shin sent this last night:
'I got tired of waiting for 'Body keeps the Score' on my library app so I bought cptsd: from surviving to thriving on Amazon Kindle. Only like 10 pages in but it's quite validating to read, I'd be curious to hear what you think if you feel inclined to check it out.
Here is an excerpt that I enjoyed, one of many: “This is a version of the time machine rescue operation that I use with myself as well as with my clients. I tell my inner child that, if time travel is ever possible, I will travel back into the past and put a stop to my parents’ abusiveness. In the course of this I say things like: “I’ll call 911. I’ll call CPS [Child Protective Services] on them. I will grab their arms and pin them behind their backs the second they try to strike you. I will muffle them with a gag so they can’t scream at you or even mumble their criticisms. I’ll put bags over their heads so they can’t frown or glare at you. I’ll send them to bed without dessert. I’ll do anything you want me to do to protect you.”
Also “Once the critic is reduced enough that you can notice increasing periods of your brain being user-friendly, impulses to help and care for yourself naturally begin to arise. As this happens it becomes easier to tell whether you are guiding yourself with love or a whip. When you realize it’s the whip, please try to disarm your critic and treat yourself with the kindness you would extend to any young child who is struggling and having a hard time.”
when i read this at like 230 in the morning, i read it as:
'I bought this book 'Surviving to Thriving on Amazon Kindle' and was very confused that the quotes somehow endorsed self publishing using amazon's Kindle Direct Publishing initiative.
The quotes make a lot of sense when today I read it as 'CPTSD: From Surviving to Thriving'
Poor Shin. Plagued with true genius, but not emotional stability. Sounds like someone else I know.
Then there's Joel. OY!
“All happy families are alike; each unhappy family is unhappy in its own way.” – Tolstoey
Joel is an old old friend who's been through tremendous crisis. ANd still is. He just cannot see mto make
I never did pontificate on the accused robbery. Want to write that down today.
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